Tranquility

Words slip through the cracks of my brain,
my mind goes quieter and my spirit unrestful.
The force that wields me lies motionless,
the lids of my eyes full of images of distant past.
No anchor for my thoughts, no wind for my life's sails. I float stationary as the waves come.
I drink, I speak, I smile. Your name burned on the inside of my lips. I reminisce, I think, I cry. My destiny came and passed.
Stop reading my words. It's despair. Stop thinking of me, you are dead. I am dead. We must be.
A day you slept in my arms, a night you murdered me. What is real, my god? I dream to exist, I wake up to die.
My words become numb and I'm afraid to stop writing. When the ink dries, it' s morning...

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